Archive for May, 2010

That Was Then

Posted: May 30, 2010 in Opinion

Years ago I had an eating issue, & I refer to it as my ‘Detox Period” I weighed about 32lbs less than I do now, & well, life was pretty ugh for a while. I get bad spells now & then, I had one earlier this year – it was quite a toughy but I made myself eat – I ate things that I like & got thro it after what seemed like an eternity.

Right now, I’m surprised at myself, I’m having a few issues again, but instead of reverting back to old habits I’m thinking logically rather than cutting down on my food & exercising. I do exercise but I can no longer be bothered to run on the spot for an hour or do so many sit ups that I get bruises on my painfully thin back.

I exercise to keep fit rather than lose weight, I eat to be healthy (Apart from the odd bit o’ chocolate 🙂 ) I think living so close to my Nieces has something to do with this, I would hate for them to pick up habits – maybe it’s a combination of things, but there’s no way I’m going back to the way I was – wearing British size 6 clothes & feeling faint with hunger. Ugh. Makes me hungry just thinking about it!!

I haven’t weighed myself in a while & there are things on TV I avoid cos they make me feel bad, but right now, I’m feeling strong & these negative thoughts can get lost cos I haven’t got time for them, just not interested.

I’m feeling strong & I’m not fighting a battle cos there is no battle; I’m thinking logically & getting on with my life. I’m quite pleased.

To see my previous post about the food issues I had earlier in the year click here:


Smarties, or something

Posted: May 29, 2010 in Music, Opinion

It says ‘Smarties’ on the cup I’m drinking from; I thought it was a remotely interesting title 🙂

I’m tired, I was up late last night & did 8-5 @ work, I didn’t ask if I could have an afternoon nap – maybe I shoulda curled up in the warehouse somewhere….hmmm.

Last week the place got held up by 2 armed robbers – they got away with nowt & no-one got hurt, then on Wednesday people climbed the roof & tried to get in to steal the spondoolicks from the cash machine – not realising that it’s got one of them ink thingys in it that would render the notes useless & spray them so if they went under a UV light they’d look like they’d been painting. Some people eh?

Ok, so I’ve had ‘Drops Of Jupiter’ in my head aaaaallllll day, such a great song & I fancy karaoke-ing it sometime – haha watch out! Here’s the tune for you now:

Well me thinks it’s time to log off & get some stuff done – until next time 🙂 xo


Posted: May 28, 2010 in Opinion

Ok, so I received a scam email, I get a fair few & to be honest I’m sick of it, people fall for these & end up either losing money, are the victim of identity theft, or even worse – both!

Just entering my private info ‘Mr.Felix Boateng’ or whoever he is could result in them trying to buy things in my name – imagine if they did & I received a bill for something I knew nothing about.

These guys are sick & shouldn’t be able to get away with it; I usually reply with: You should be in prison’ & occasionally ‘Eat my shorts’, today it was the latter (Childish I know, but I don’t care).                                                                                                                  —>

From Mr.Felix Boateng
International commercial Bank .
Ring road Accra Ghana.
I am enchanted using this tremendous opportunity to converse with you in this medium of communication. I am Mr.Pascal Akossa branch Manager International commercial Bank.
I am contacting you for a possible business transfer worth $10,500,000.00 I am using this moment to give you the cognizance and also to seek your assistance to this business proposal. I got your contact over the internet.
In my branch I discovered an abandoned sum of $10,500,000.00 in an account that belongs to one of our foreign customers Mr. Alan Williams, A British National who died along with his entire family in (20th Oct, 2005) in a plane crash. As followed in this link
Do not view this as being illegal but an opportunity for us to enrich our hope in life instead of the bank converting this much money to the security funds.
You should not nurse any atom of fear as all required arrangements have been made for the smooth transfer of these funds into your account,and your acceptance is what will crown this effort.
It will be my interest to finish this transaction with you hoping that you will not cheat or blackmail me at the conclusion of this goal because I have planned it for long. If you can be a collaborator to this transaction, please indicate your positive interest immediately for us to proceed. Remember this is absolutely confidential because my Bank does not know about it.
To establish this you have to send the following information to me
FULL NAMES:________________________
ADDRESS: _________________________
MOBILE PHONE:_____________________________
TEL FAX NUMBER:_____________________
Thank you for your time and attention.
Thanks and God bless You,
Mr.Felix Boateng

You may get an email claiming you have won a lottery somewhere – if you haven’t entered you can’t win, but if you have entered, you will not need to pay an admin fee!! What’s that saying…..’If it sounds too good to be true it probably is.’

Be careful, if you have any doubts, ask someone you can trust.


Posted: May 27, 2010 in Opinion

My Mom grows lotsa stuff, from fruit, to veg to plants – I remember being about 5 years old & eating mint leaves she was growing in the garden. Nom nom nom. Aaaaanywaaayyy here’s a poppy that is quite happily growing in the front garden – it’s massive (The poppy, not the garden) & she is so proud of it!!!

Oh my! Who is this little cutie at her Aunt Mary’s wedding in Hereford…..years ago (Soak it up guys, ’bout the only time you’ll see a pic of..err someone in a dress!)


                                                                              That’s right! Jelly Beans!! Ooh I come in all kinds of flavours!!! OK, so I’m ‘jellie’ & not ‘Jelly’, buuuut you get the idea. (Note to Cisa, so I taste AND smell good? O.0 Oh My Damn!) Enjoy the video below 🙂 :


8 Years Later…

Posted: May 26, 2010 in Opinion

8 years after moving from Peterborough, Cambridgeshire, I returned for a family celebration, the place hadn’t changed much & it was nice to be back for a short while.

I knew my way around pretty well but had forgotten how busy the city is. While waiting at the bus station that was still as chaotic & grimy as it was 8 years previous I saw a lady I hadn’t even thought of in my time away….

Just as she did when I lived there, she did then, making  her way thro’ the bus station drink in hand singing to herself & her companions looking as distant as ever before & her face still red from the excess of alcohol.

In  my time away from the big city I had gotten my first job, moved into my own place & was carving out a life of my own; I was saddened by this lady, that in all that time she was living just the same,  not going forward, not… anything, just living her alcohol fuelled life.

I’m not looking down on or pitying her, I just couldn’t believe after all that time, there she was doing the same old thing.  I hope her life is a good one & she doesn’t drink to escape problems or block things out, but you never know. I hope she finds happiness & sobriety, I just think it’s sad cos she’ll be capable of so much more.

On This Journey

Posted: May 25, 2010 in Opinion

A couple of months ago I asked a friend where she would like her life to take her.’ That’s deep Jels’ she replied, & told me what she wished for.

I knew a lady who saw no purpose in her life ‘You’re born, you die, no-one remembers you & that’s it. What’s the point?’ She had a loving husband & children & before I moved away I’d heard of the imminent arrival of her 2nd grandchild; she is rich in so many ways, I hope she realises someday soon.

So where is this journey going to take us? We may not have our handprints on the Hollywood walk of fame or be a great world leader, but each of our lives is significant & I believe long after we’re gone there’s a part of us that lives on.

I get a bit sentimental at times & tell certain people ‘Wherever the journey of my life takes me I want you as a friend along the way.’ For me it’s about my friends & family, working thro whatever troubles life throws at me & being nice to others along the way.

I know where I want to be, it’s hard work trying to get there & it won’t stop if I arrive; but if you’re reading this, chances are you’re one of those that are special to me & if I ever get to my dream destination don’t expect a ‘Wish you were here’ postcard, remember you’re taking the journey with me.

God Knows Best

Posted: May 24, 2010 in Other
Our Father knows what’s best for us,
So why should we complain …
We always want the sunshine,
But He knows there must be rain.
We love the sound of laughter
And the merriment of cheer;
But our hearts would lose their tenderness
If we never shed a tear.
Our Father tests us often
With suffering and with sorrow;
He tests us, not to punish us,
But to help us meet “tomorrow.”
For growing trees are strengthened
When they withstand the storm;
And the sharp cut of the chisel
Gives the marble grace and form.
God never hurts us needlessly,
And He never wastes our pain;
For every loss He sends to us
Is followed by rich gain.
And when we count the blessings
That God has so freely sent;
We will find no cause for murmuring
And no time to lament.
For Our Father loves His children,
And to Him all things are plain;
So He never sends us “pleasure”
When the “soul’s deep need is pain.”
So whenever we are troubled,
And when everything goes wrong,
It is just God working in us
To make “our spirits strong.”
~ Helen Steiner Rice ~