Shauna Skye

2) Does he or she have a boyfriend/girlfriend?

She has a husband!

3) Do you get along with this person all the time?

All the time – tho I am pretty damn scared of her, if the truth be known!

4) How old is the person?

Waaa, I dunno, I think around the same age as me

5) Has he/she ever cooked for you?

Nope, lol (How rude!)

6) Is this person older than you?

See question 4!

7) Have you ever kissed this person?

No hahahaha

9) Are you related to this person?

She is my Godmother, or should I say THE Godmother! (what happened to question 8?)

10) Are you really close to him/her?

I think we’re pretty close, we have some deep talks now and again

11) Nickname?

Godmother! On account of her plans for global domination and her businesses that are covers for…well, the less said the better!

12.) Do they have a nickname for you?

Jellie

13) How many times do you talk to this person in a week?

Probably at least 5

14) Do you think they will repost this?

She might, depending on how busy she is with her empire (And if she’s not drooling over Dr Who)

15) Could you live with this person?

Yes, but I’d have to watch my every move in case I angered her.

16) Why is this person your friend?

Cos underneath the gangster-type exterior she’s really actually kinda nice, sometimes.

17) Do you know where this person lives?

Perhaps!

18) How long have you known this person?

Ooh about 16 months

19) Have you ever been to do we even have a mall here?

What?

20) Have you ever had a sleepover with this person?

I would be scared that I’d never wake up – I’d have to sleep with one eye open!

21) If you ever moved away would you miss this person?

Yes I would

23) Have you ever done something really stupid or illegal with this person?

Hahaha see question 11 and make your own mind up

24) Do you know everything about this person?

Not everything, but I like what I know

25) Would you date this persons siblings?

No, I am happy with the lady I’m with

26) Have you ever made something with this person?

Probably a right noise in a club somewhere!

29) Have you gone skinny dipping with this person?

No hahahahah

31) Is your friend on drugs?

No, Shauna wouldn’t touch them, I know that for a fact.

33) Have you ever worn this person’s clothes?

You touch something of the Godmothers and your life wouldn’t be worth living! (Where’s q 32?)

34) Does this person wear your clothes?

Er, I don’t think so, she seems to prefer girly type clothes rather than hoodies and jeans

35) If it was “freaky friday” would you switch bodies with this person?

Yeah I would, then I’d see what she really gets up to

36) Have you ever heard this person sing?

Yeah, aww she’s got a cute little voice –hee hee

38) Do you and this person have a saying?

Um..where do I start? Hahaha we have so many:

Tube!

Farky Nell!

Oh My Dayum!

And many many more!

39) Do you know this persons myspace password?

Yes it’s: onedayiwillruletheworldmwahahahahahaha

41) Have you and this person ever gotten into a fight that lasted more than 2 months?

Noooooooo

44.) Have you and this person gone clubbing?

Yes hahahaha

45) Do you know how to make this person feel happy?

I like to think so

46) Do you and this person talk a lot?

We talk almost every day, but only have big conversations now and then – she’s a busy bee!

47) Do you like this person?

Yeah, despite being absolutely terrified of her, I am fond of her.

48) Has this person yelled at you?

Uuuuuuum, I don’t think so!

49) Have you and this person got into a fist fight?

Would I dare??

50) Do you want to go out with this person?

No hahahahhahaha, I am happy with the lady I’m with

51) Do you want to be friends with them forever?

I do she’s my pal

How the heck are you? Did you celebrate the new year? or did you go to bed and wake up thinking ‘It’s just another day’?

I was fortunate enough to spend NYE with someone special and had the pleasure of wishing her ‘Happy New Year!’ as the clock struck midnight.

I guess today is just another day, all that’s happened is one of the numbers in the calendar has changed, but it’s an occasion that gives us hope and reason to celebrate, sometimes with friends, families and loved ones, and sometimes by ourselves.

How many resolutions will you stick to this year? I’ve given up making them – did ages ago, cos I never stuck to them!

I plan to finish the novel I’m working on by June, but we’ll see if that happens – I decided that late last year, so it’s not really a resolution.

2010 was a good year for me, ok so the first 3 months weren’t anything special – a bit sucky tbh, the 4th would have been the same if my 3rd Niece hadn’t been born; but from then on 2010 proved to be a pretty damn good year, and I’m hoping this year will be too – let’s see how my positive mental attitude about it helps!!

I hope 2011 is good for you and you’re able to stick to any resolutions you made, and your wishes come true. I know what I wish for, but I wished for the same things late last year. It’s not that I don’t see a point to making resolutions or thinking ‘New year, fresh start’, like I said, I’ve never been able to keep the resolutions and sometimes I see a brand new day as a fresh start rather than waiting for another year to begin.

You can have a fresh start without much at all changing, it’s all in the mind.

Rachel. x

There are two things I would like to change about myself, the first is I wish to have a novel published – I’ve written 3 but I think I’ve found my voice so I’m going to stick with the one I’m writing rather than trying to get any of the others published.

Secondly I wish to wake up next to Blue rose each morning and go to sleep beside her each night.

Regarding characteristics, I’m not sure what I would like to change about myself, perhaps being a bit more committed to writing wouldn’t hurt,  but to be honest sometimes I get so emotionally involved or stuck into it that I need to have time out.

I had a lovely day with my family – seeing them is always lovely, but it was extra special because of the time of year. My Mother cooked an amazing dinner (Duck) and we were all stuffed by the end – and there was still more to eat, but we all did what our family do best, and that is take a nap!

All in all it was a lovely day, made even more special by spending the evening with a certain someone ♥

Day 27, What’s the best thing going for you right now?

My Blue Rose

Day 28, What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

I’d be very very surprised and have some serious questions to ask my Mother!! I know NASA would probably want to get in touch and I’d  have to be put on some sort of medication due to my confused state…

I’m afraid I have, it was 10+ years ago and I was very depressed, I felt there was no need for me to be here.  I felt so alone despite having many friends and a loving family, I felt utterly worthless and in the way. I was at work one day and something happened, I’m not sure what, but it tipped me over the edge. At lunch time I went home and decided to end it all,  thankfully I managed to get help before I did anything.

There was another occasion, at the time my bedroom had a skylight and at night I would lie in bed and look up at the stars wishing I was there. I was having weekly Doctors appointments and seeing other health professionals  too, but I mostly just told them I was getting better, even tho I felt so bad for lying.

I don’t know what tipped me over the edge, but something did, and this time I carried it out, I don’t remember the event, I just remember the tears and pain before and some of the after.

I have never been that low since, and I thank God for bringing me through those incredibly tough times; it’s only been 10+ years, but it feels like a lifetime ago and in some respects it could have been a different person.

It was then that I really started writing, I have more than 40 poems from that period in my life, and many diary entries, it was the writing and the learning to open up that helped more than any medication.

Life is far too precious a thing to give up on, there are so many things to experience and learn. Life is a gift and we each have so much to live for.

Rachel.x

Ok, so I’ve finally sat down and worked out a playlist; I have kinda cheated tho and done what another blogger did, and that’s to list songs that were and are relevant to myself rather than someone else – easier methinks.

I cannot promise these are in the correct order re: the years they came out as well as the years they  were relevant to me, but anyway, some may be cheesy, some may not, but at one point they were relevant, and there are those that still are:

Pet shop boys – It’s a sin

Urban Cookie Collective – The key, the secret

Vanilla Ice – Ice ice baby

Ravel’s Bolero

Shakespears Sister – I don’t care

Beatles – Free as a bird

Marcella Detroit – Art of melancholy

Eddi Reader – The right place

Marcella Detroit – I believe

Dr Alban – It’s my life

Shakespears Sister – Hello

Michael Jackson – Leave me alone

Enya – Marble halls

Manics – Roses in the hospital

Grieg – Morning

Spice girls – Viva forever

Bryan Adams – Things will never be the same again

Manics – 4st 7lb

Skunk Anansie -  Twisted (every day hurts)

Manics – From despair to where

Pachelbel – Canon

Melanie C – What if I stay?

Madonna – Jump

Marcella Detroit – Jewel

Madonna – Forbidden love

Skunk Anansie – Weak

Kanye West – Stronger

Amerie – Take control

Hellogoodbye – Here in your arms

Gwen Stefani – cool

Scissor sisters – Kiss you off

Mgmt – Kids

Blue October – Jump rope

Snow Patrol – Chasing cars

Day 25, The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

I’ve had some very testing times in my life, I’ve managed to pull through somehow; there has to be a reason for this and I believe that God has kept me alive, for whatever reason that may be.

I hate to think about some of the things I’ve put my body and other people through, but I’m still here to tell the tale and hope to be around long enough to tell many more.

Because rehearsal isn’t on this week I’ve been giving myself jobs to do instead of being there, I’ve done most of them but ‘Day 24′ just isn’t gonna happen. I’m about to finish writing an article for Moonletters.com and perhaps jot down some ideas for the novel I’m working on – I’m pleased with the progress thus far and cannot wait to be able to sit down properly again and just focus on it.

Ahh, my flatmate has stopped singing in the shower, haha I think she was singing cos she was pleased to be warm, it’s been so cold today – about -11 which is bloomin freezin, and as she works outside, well it must have been a hundred times worse for her. The heating is on full blast as I write and I have to say it’s all very cozy in here; hope you’re keeping warm too.

Rachel.x

 Jonathan Livingston Seagull By Richard Bach.

I wish I had studied computing at college rather than business.

I wish I had the confidence to walk away from a certain someone

I wish I had asked my parents if I could go to  Gymnastics class as a kid, and not keep my desire a secret cos they had little money

I wish all kinds of things, but like I said in the blog yesterday, there’s no point dwelling on the past, you can’t change it.

It’s simple, I would go and see them, there is no way I would out the fight first, so to speak. With any fight/argument I try to resolve the issue – it’s no good hanging on to things, life is too short; have the argument, get it out in the open and be done with it, or don’t bring it up at all.

Day 22, Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

There are a few things I wish I hadn’t done, or handled differently, but life is a journey and a learning process. If I hadn’t done ‘That’ for example, I don’t know how things would have turned out, where I am in my life right now is pretty good, could be better, but couldn’t it always? If I had of done things differently, or not at all, then I wouldn’t be where I am today. Every action has a reaction, an’ all that.

We cannot change the past, we can regret and wish we had done things another way, but what’s the point in dwelling? It won’t change anything. We should be thankful for what we have and strive to learn from our mistakes.